I wonder…

She wonders why there’s only one person here she can have a firm reliance on, and ironic that this is the same person she couldn’t trust in her early days here… and too ironic still, this is the same person who tainted her name and they hated her, and yet she feels shielded when this person is in the perimeter, yes even in the perimeter…

She remain to wonder…

Defy father

Father taught me many things in life.
Things that made me survived hell.
I have my father’s heart and mind, and
all the things he taught me, I hold them in my heart. But the one thing I will defy father…and should have defied him a long time ago…

what I became…chrome-hearted.

This, I have slowly burned and destroyed, and I’d be most happy to show it in his face…

That I can fall inlove too.

Lies and Stories I’ve told

In every story I’ve told, there’s always a considerable basis for it…

 Either to wake someone up, or to wake me up…

In every lies I’ve told, there’s a compelling and cardinal need to do it…

It’s a trivial or well-intentioned, diplomatic untruth…

Don’t judge the merits and faults of my chronicles and anecdotes, I’m human who can tell a story and can tell lies…

Are you human too?

Will you take her / him back?

SO your great love cheated on you. You left him/her. She/He chases you, on his/her knees. Would you accept him/her back? and why?

cindy- mabuti pa kayang maging bituing walang ningning… says:
before i’d let him come back into my life, i’ll skin him and boil him first….
Nikko oi, This question will not apply to me lagi! hehe

ctc_chris@calltekcenter.com <mailto:ctc_chris@calltekcenter.com> says:
yep granted it’s just the very first time he’s gonna cheat
twice? forget it, of course i still love..i can forgive him

ctc_taylor@hotmail.com <mailto:ctc_taylor@hotmail.com> says:
if i love him , give him 2nd chance

<jimm> Finally I woke up from the nightmare. says:
i have always been a forgiver…yes i would take her back,after a good one on one or heart to heart talk though, when i a love someone i tend to give it my all and not half way, so i would give her another chance

LEXIE says:

NEVER. I can never give second chances on things that hurt my pride and insult my ego. The moment I’m being turned down, It stays in my heart, and I don’t care if I’m going to get hurt for the rest of my life losing him.
Simple logic: YOU DON’T CHEAT ON THE ONE YOU LOVE. ESPECIALLY IF THE KIND OF LOVE THAT WAS GIVEN TO YOU WAS SOMETHING THAT COULD ONLY HAPPEN ONCE IN THIS LIFETIME.

I can take risks

What makes a woman stupid when in a relationship?
When her man lies, she accepts it, and believes it.

What makes a woman spread her legs to a man who tells her sweet lies?
When her man does everything just to DO her, she falls into this stupid concept of him falling inlove with her.

My constant question would always be:
How can men have sex out of lust and still can look a woman in the eye like nothing had happened?
Women confuse lust to love, most of the time.

When do we know it’s love or lust?

Well, I can take risks. dangerous, but exciting.

Remember this…

Remain far from a man who’s inlove with someone else…
If a man has someone in his heart, that’s the one thing I avoid…
NO ONE can compete with that.

NO beauty queen, or goddess is ever going to win.

SHE’S in his heart, like a queen, she calls him, he runs to her, she wants this and that, he gives it to her. And he CAN’T let go.

Instead, you’ll only be his f*cking bitch. remember that!

Are you a goddess?

-someone who stands out in a crowd where too many try hard to get noticed.
she stays in the background and yet, she is most wanted and hated at the same time

-someone who does not follow trends, she has her own style

-has good breeding, and it shows wherever she goes, whatever happens

-someone who stays away from her girlfriends’ boyfriends/husbands/men

-has her own mind, she doesn’t let her friends tell her what to do with her hair, clothes, or accessories–she knows what’s in and what’s not

-she ONLY, and ONLY OUTRAGEOUSLY FLIRTS and is SENSUAL with a man she loves, and no one else!

-who does not have the reputation of a flirt or a social-climbing, goldigging bitch

-who sees both sides of any story

-someone who does not try too hard to get a man’s attention

-someone her man trusts on all occasion

-someone a man can be proud of, he can shout to the world how he worships
her because she’s worth it

-who never uses her man and let him spend for her dozen of friends and family

-someone who can raise a man’s life from loneliness, from insecurities and understands all his needs and dramas in life

-someone who can bring out the best in him, even the worst playboy would think
there’s actually a good man in him.

SO, ARE YOU A GODDESS?

the trick is … don’t try too hard, otherwise, it’s going to look fake…
if it’s not you, then it’s NEVER you.

Are you this guy?

IF YOU ARE THIS MAN:

-A man who is not following on what’s cool for the moment
-A man who has a mind of his own
-A man who can stimulate my best sex organ–my brain
-A man who highly value integrity and credibility
-A man with good sense of humor
-A spontaneous, fun guy
-A man who gets out of the house without putting too much drama on his outfit or hair
-A man that really smells sexy
-A man I can trust
-A man I can respect
-A man who can tame the beast in me

THEN I AM YOURS.

Flesh over divinity

Roda and Brandon were discussing about this guy they want to pair me up with.

They call him the mortal soul.
Well, I’m the “goddess”, so that makes me divine…

So they tried to assess the possibilities…

First, the mortal is taken, and Roda and I would argue on what’s in his heart.
The goddess in me, who’d gave up all possibilities would always say to Roda, the “mortal” is crazy inlove and is absolutely emotionally attached to his mortal mate.

Roda insists, it’s just for maintenance.

And my two crazy friends keep bugging me about it. Their teasing follow me around like little children , hoping I’d really fall for this “mortal soul”.

Flesh over divinity!

corruption of the best is worst

Are we in a communist country?
Cos I thought we value democracy.
Are we not allowed to enjoy our rights and priviledges?
Cos it seems like, in some corners, we still see these little descripancies on how things should run and work.
Are our lives being run like hell still?
cos why make people’s lives harder?
Are people making your lives harder? or poorer?
Is profitability not good enough now adays?
Or is it simply selfishness?

This is why impeachment is so famous these days…
corruption of the best is worst.

Tabloid cheap

And they put meaning to what you say
And they put meaning to what you do
And they put words into your mouth
They’re glaring at you like you’re about to commit a crime and anticipate for a false move.
And you’re like this hollywood star quoted as saying this and that…
And next day, headline  sreams:
You said this and that, and surprise! surprise!
When did I say that, you asked yourself.
They are certified tabloid junkies! Cheap.

Simply cheap.
I wish they do something better like watch CNN or BBC . And  maybe read Homer, or Dickens maybe. Or Ludlum. Or do charity works.