i will never respect…

Another thing i learned from my parents…
great respect for any human being…
wealthy or poor

but regardless of financial status…
if you’re an asshole and stares at me like a
pervert … i will never respect you…regardless.

say it like a real man!

let’s see…
a guy will do his pick-up line… and why?
to get you to go out with him, to spend some time with you and eventually, maybe to get you to sleep with him…who knows!

case in point:
aren’t pick-up lines pathetic???

i mean, you use these to impress a girl…
or maybe this is how stupid men think of women… a simple pick-up line and he’s getting  her digits and she’s spreading her legs!

pick-up lines these days are so played-out…
like it doesn’t amaze us anymore…

it’s like:

-when there’s another suicide bombing in Iraq and the world just go, ” Yeah, yeah! So what else is new?”

-when you know in your heart your first love is pizza, yet it’s doesn’t seem to excite you anymore..be it Yellow cab or Mario Batali’s authentic pizza.

-when you’re feeling mushy on deep, overwhelming love poetry or stories, yet it becomes boring after a few lines…

-when  wine and roses are like the ultimate icon for romance and yet, it’s not impressive anymore.

-when a great love song is supposed to get to you in a deeper level and yet, all you need this time is Numb by Linkin Park!

BOTTOM  LINE IS:

-it all boils down to one thing…

be simple guys. simply tell her upfront

I like you. I need you! that’s it.

no need for poetry, for sweet lies, for careless whispers…

look her in the eye and sincerely say i like you.

bad

women gossip…
but when men gossip..its worse.
im not blind to the fact as to  how men discuss things like girls, a person’s character, a person’s physical attributes and all.
Men know how to play it cool, as if they would never delve into little or complicated details of a person’s personal miseries or scandals.

With gossiping…men are worse.
Maybe they should know…

we are aware of it.
i am aware of it.

lonely xmas

It’s almost christmas, and Im not sure where to spend it
For the first time in my life…
i will be alone on chrismas

But when i think about it…

I have always been alone…
even when my family is around.

So nothing is new…

i’d rather…

Most people that come from a broken family would always want to be in a family still intact…

I, on the other hand…the kind of family I got, where pride and superiority exist the most…where everyone is high and mighty…

I’d rather want to be in a broken family than to live in one.

it’s sooo him

Oct 19, thursday…

All of a sudden, my older sister called me.
She said father invited me for dinner…
In the back of my mind..i was kind of suspicious…father? He never bends.
And just like that? I know whose idea it was from…it was supposed to be a bait…from Harry…again…so i declined.

Maybe he thinks, i forgot this date .

 I will never forget Oct. 19, 2004.
and to use my family to get to me…
it’s sooo Harry.

shut me up

sometimes i argue with my friends
and tell them to give THEM a chance and tell them to give the system a chance.

And MOST of the time they always find a way to shut me up

they always say…

You can’t even give HARRY a chance!

chance

 
i bump into harry two weeks ago
i saw him first
i pretended i didn’t see him
in a little while he approached me
and it looked like he’s sooo happy to bump into me
But each time i bump into him, i always have this sad moment.

I wonder, is it because he always reminds me of the pain,
or maybe because…

i never gave him the chance…?

past or present???

what happens when one morning you realize you want to change your life?

and when you least expect it…it does
change…

but what happens when ironically…
you need to choose between the past and the present…

and there’s someone in the past you can’t let go
and at present time, there’s someone who “seduces” you to forget the past…and you’re loving every moment of it…

and what happens when everything falls into place and shouts at you…

“don’t you get it?!? it has always been him!!!”

And at this point … you enable your firewall because you’re scared you’d get hurt again.

And how will the story end???

look back

-They say don’t look back
-They say don’t linger in the past
-They say don’t forget to look forward
-But don’t you just think

There’s nothing in tomorrow that wasn’t there yesterday?

Simply

she wants to go to a place where no one knows her,
where everyone is beautiful so no one will hate her.
she wants to be in a place where
nothing will remind her of the past
a place where she can start new,
to be a little girl again and disable her firewall.

If this world exists..

she’ll give up everything she has and live simply.

LISTEN

Bob’s back to life

Summer asked me to talk to BOb and advise him to maybe take a leave if he wants to… Bob’s been dubbed lately as sad and admin’s so concerned.

LAter, I’m back in the  AM shift.

Now Bob’s so alive!
Now he said he won’t take a leave.
It only takes a LEXIE to make the sun shine in Bob’s life.

What else do you want me to do Bobby? You have three choices…
A, B, or C?

Your wish is my command dahlin!

One in a million

For decades, our family never had a permanent household maid, too scared to stay long because of father.

We always have new strangers (maids) at home. These girls are from a third world country who obviously survived several coup d’etat(s) and from provinces with NPAs.
But could not survive father. Too strict.

It’s been a private, running joke in the entire clan.

Father… One in a million!

change continent!

So i went to my family’s hairstylist, this gay is a family friend for over a decade, he knows each and everyone’s birthday within my family…

So inside, I went…when he shoo me away!
In my mind, c’mon father got to you too?

And i was standing in the middle…So everyone stared at me…

I kept my cool…slowly walking towards him while asking him calmly…
Why are you shooing me away?

He was kinda hysterical, and panicky.
“You’re father, made an appointment, he’ll be here in a few minutes! And you know your dad! He’s never late!

So the lara croft in me was out in just a flash!

This is the reason why I want to change continent!

DIET!!!

I made a deal with BOB…
I’d make love to him three times a day for a month and he can do whatever he wants with my body…

IN ONE CONDITION…
He should lose weight first.

In an instant, Bob said, “I’ll fly to Manila right away and have Dr. Belo do liposuction, and I’ll do whatever I want with your body!!!

Really Bob?! I’m not sexy I know, but do you really think I’d let a FRANKENSTEIN touch my body?!?!

EEEEWWWW!!!!

Diet Bobby! Diet!

Party animal?

You’d be surprised to know I only
had two boyfriends in my whole life
Youd’ be surprised to know I’ve gone to the disco five times this year
You’d be surprised to know, I haven’t been to any Jamaican nights party since it was first launched in the 90’s.
You’d be surprsied to know I’m actually a homebody.

It’s not like I’m gonna go through life telling myself
“I should’ve “or “I could’ve “,
because the most important things in life worth chasing for…

I’ve already chased ‘em.

what she thinks…

Tori, from the new batch PMed me and we chatted.
She was suddenly assessing me…
From another soul, here lies what she thinks of me…
from person to person’s point of view on me…
they all sound the same…

tori - overlord says:
you’re not scary.

tori - overlord says:
just unnerving sometimes.

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
unnerving is when you dont like my presence

tori - overlord says:
really now.
tori - overlord says:
lemme google for the right word then

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
what is it?, is it my face?

tori - overlord says:
nope, your AURA, your presence, your psychic vibrations, causing temporary brain malfunction,

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
causing temporary brain malfunction–when you say this…is this when i enter a room?

tori - overlord says:
when you walk
tori - overlord says:
or stare , or something

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
so its not my face?

tori - overlord says:
nope not your face

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
ok good

tori - overlord says:
it’s the eyes, like you’re searching into a person’s innermost recesses…of a person’s ..stomach.

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
ALL OF YOU make me feel like im an ALIEN, like im sooo different !

FROM HERE SHE ASKS QUESTIONS ABOUT THE MYSTERY OF MY SITE’S
“HE” AND THE “SHE” IN SOME OF MY POSTS…I LAUGHED.

tori - overlord says:
and she’s laughing at a poor mortal’s attempt to understand the inner workings of a goddess’s mind

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
the blog is ME, unpredictable, one has to wonder,

tori - overlord says:
about your sanity?

tori - overlord says:
i think a blood vesel on my brain just dissipated

LEXIE—Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. . says:
hahahhahaha

And I just laugh…here comes another interesting person..Tori.

can you really fix it?

From now on, she decided not to go to any soiree that involves the people who wants to bury her and skin her alive. They can feast and she can withdraw. So as not to hear anymore sarcastic remarks and blunt verbal comtempt intended for her which she swallowed for a long time, coming from people with dirty hearts and dirty faces covered with sweet masks.

It’s ok, this makes her want to show her clean, clear, unwrinkled skin, to show to the world,
this is what you get without envy and hatred in your heart.

What’s in the heart, is shown in the face.

No dermatologist can fix that.

My new Mel Gibson

Bob sent me these snapshots of an indian actor and said this was how he looked like when he was in high school.
I laughed!

When I think about it, I really wondered if Bob would actually still speak to me if this guy was him.

This guy would be my new Mel Gibson.